He can't help but turn curious eyes towards the shadows, before glancing away. Knowledge Seeker he may be but he wont pry.

And oh.

That is actually going to be harder. He frowns, just a flicker, before he lets it smooth away. Turns his thoughts inwards. His second death he thought was just the trigger for Truthless. The flood of pain and doubt he went through that physically turned him, mentally and spiritually shattered him. But as he had become Pure Vanilla again, Awakened, and something had twisted inside of him.

Does he even have his own inner light anymore, when sometimes he forgets what love and forgiveness feel like?

No, it's there, he just has to look. Doubt will not consume him anymore. So he searches, quiet and slow, in the light of the Moon. Ourania's light. Treads the pathways of his soul, shuts out the Soul Jams light, and sinks into the dark as he looks.

And he looks.

And there, softly glittering and a little wounded, he finds it. His death, his missing heart, hasn't removed it. It'll need time to bring it back to what it was, but he has time and the love for himself needed to tend to it.

And when he brings it out he shows it like a little shepherd showing off a new born lamb.