[Whoops. Now she's yelling. She doesn't mean to, it's clear; the shame in her eyes says that much as she slumps back into her chair, looking distinctly uncomfortable, but continuing anyway despite it.]
Because I am weak, [she repeats, quieter this time,] and I have always been weak, even when I am at my strongest. He is my brother — even when he killed my dragon, killed the Sky Guardian, and broke my halo, he remained my brother. I love him despite his crimes, but I detest him in equal measure.
So yes, it was love that stayed my hand, as it always does. It's because, no matter who I am — war, fury, a sword cleaving the earth, strength herself — who I want to be is sunlight, love, and warmth. I have never been strong. I was not strong thousands of years ago, and I often wonder if I'm strong now.
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[Whoops. Now she's yelling. She doesn't mean to, it's clear; the shame in her eyes says that much as she slumps back into her chair, looking distinctly uncomfortable, but continuing anyway despite it.]
Because I am weak, [she repeats, quieter this time,] and I have always been weak, even when I am at my strongest. He is my brother — even when he killed my dragon, killed the Sky Guardian, and broke my halo, he remained my brother. I love him despite his crimes, but I detest him in equal measure.
So yes, it was love that stayed my hand, as it always does. It's because, no matter who I am — war, fury, a sword cleaving the earth, strength herself — who I want to be is sunlight, love, and warmth. I have never been strong. I was not strong thousands of years ago, and I often wonder if I'm strong now.