Still, you were owed an explanation. It isn't that I don't enjoy your company — far from it. My avoidance was simply...
[It's difficult to explain, and he hums, looking off to the side. A normal person would say something like "I think I'm developing feelings for you" or "hey, trauma-brain doesn't want me to get closer but I want to be closer, I'm just bad at this" or even something as simple as "I have anxiety". Zahliya does not have normal brain. He has gargoyle brain. He has ingrained duty to protect people from harm brain, not "be calm and learn to love" brain.
There's something strange and tight in his chest whenever he looks at Luca, so he doesn't. It's an unidentifiable nebula he can't sort out.]
...I needed the time to sort myself out. ......and I also thought you might be angry with me. .........and I also think I may be exceedingly horrid at this, despite the fact I would attempt to sleep with you again.
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Yes, I believe cuddling is a physical act.
[The braincell is not firing on all cylinders.]
Still, you were owed an explanation. It isn't that I don't enjoy your company — far from it. My avoidance was simply...
[It's difficult to explain, and he hums, looking off to the side. A normal person would say something like "I think I'm developing feelings for you" or "hey, trauma-brain doesn't want me to get closer but I want to be closer, I'm just bad at this" or even something as simple as "I have anxiety". Zahliya does not have normal brain. He has gargoyle brain. He has ingrained duty to protect people from harm brain, not "be calm and learn to love" brain.
There's something strange and tight in his chest whenever he looks at Luca, so he doesn't. It's an unidentifiable nebula he can't sort out.]
...I needed the time to sort myself out. ......and I also thought you might be angry with me. .........and I also think I may be exceedingly horrid at this, despite the fact I would attempt to sleep with you again.
[WHY DID YOU SAY IT LIKE THAT.]