[He slumps. Sighs. He doesn't want to... everything is so raw and overwhelming right now. It's not his usual drop-of-ink-in-a-pond, it's a full-blown oil spill mentally right now. It sucks. He hasn't felt this since he was a kid, and for all his wishes to be normal, right now, he wishes he could just shut it all out.]

I don't know if you can. [And he doesn't mean that to be rude, he's just pretty sure this is something he has to deal with himself.] I got— I got in over my head about something and made a stupid choice, and now it's biting me in the ass, that's all.

[...]

I'm sure you've probably heard from others, but I have feelings for Add. And last night I was stupid and kissed him. [Not sharing what else they did.] He acted like it was fine, and then a bit ago today, told me it was just a science experiment and that it didn't actually mean anything to him.

But it meant things to me. It meant a lot to me. I guess it doesn't matter now, though. ...that's what I meant when I said the mirror is just screwing things up. This wouldn't have happened otherwise. It's not your fault, it's mine, but I just wish... [deep breath.] I don't know. I just wish it hadn't happened at all.