I don't want to be a pillar. All I wanted was to save her.
[his voice finally cracks—he feels like he's going to explode. the weight of it all, trying to stay strong, trying not to make people worry... it's too much. he's not strong at all. he's always been a pathetic, miserable coward, someone who only pretends to know what he's doing but can't do anything on his own...
all he ever wanted was to have his mother back. now, without even trying, he's already failed her again.
... and a sister he never even knew about. no matter what he chooses to believe...
nails dig into his sleeves, face half-buried in his arms. he can't look at her. he's disgusted with himself.]
... I'm not your brother. I don't know anything about you.
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[his voice finally cracks—he feels like he's going to explode. the weight of it all, trying to stay strong, trying not to make people worry... it's too much. he's not strong at all. he's always been a pathetic, miserable coward, someone who only pretends to know what he's doing but can't do anything on his own...
all he ever wanted was to have his mother back. now, without even trying, he's already failed her again.
... and a sister he never even knew about. no matter what he chooses to believe...
nails dig into his sleeves, face half-buried in his arms. he can't look at her. he's disgusted with himself.]
... I'm not your brother. I don't know anything about you.